Saturday, February 28, 2015

Circle of Life

The more and more I think about death, the more I think about the beauty of life, and how important it is to live always from a place of gratitude and always try to stay in the present moment. To not get swept away in the endless to-do's and must-have's is really difficult, but I am becoming more aware of the subtle but distinctly profound qualities of life that make it wonderful without all of that. In the long run, none of that matters. What matters is to fill yourself up with experiences that feed your soul, make you feel like a child again, and allow you to love every moment of this Earthly journey, which is so short.

It's so humbling to me to see how the human body can be so powerful and strong, and yet also so weak and fragile. I have always been a healthy eater, but I can't say I always had a complete healthy lifestyle. The thoughts you think, the way you choose to condition your mind and body is so important. Never get distracted by small things that don't matter, because there is a whole world filled with opportunities that pass us by every moment of every day.

I've found greater value in family relationships, as well as the relationship I have with myself, and how that is truly the foundation of all relationships. I've been aware of this for a long time, but I am putting it into practice in a new way now, and it feels so empowering! Life is so short, and it needs to be filled with moments that make you feel beautiful and powerful and excited, rather than moments of regret, pain, or anger. Listen, I understand these are all very real and also essential human emotions, and I'm not asking you to try to get rid of them, because that's not healthy...I'm simply asking you to re-evaluate how important that is to you to keep holding on to.

Give yourself time to let those emotions come and go, but when you've fully lived and experienced it, and learned a lesson from it, let it go and forgive; forgive yourself and those that have hurt you. It may seem like something that is way to huge to forgive, and I can't say that I know each of you reading this and what you have gone through, but I can say, when you go back Home in just a short while, it won't matter. It just won't matter.

You'll have a complete full spectrum view on all those life experiences and how they benefited you to become a stronger and more powerful version of yourself. Even when it looks like the other guys fault, believe it or not, you co-created the experience. If you took part in it, there's a lesson in there for you, and you just can't discount that. It is ignorant to always think that your pain and suffering derives from people and experiences around you, because there is ALWAYS a lesson in it, and it's always for you. Let the people around you learn their own lessons, and let your lesson be to serve yourself.

This life is delicate. Do me a favor, and do yourself a favor, and start living it up the best you can. Find ways to delight in the world, even when it doesn't always look pleasant. Treat yourself without feeling selfish. Find out what's really important, and make that your only priority. There's no need to waste time with things that feel insignificant to you. Dream big, and accomplish them, because you can! See the world, revel in the beauty around you. If nothing else, see the magnificence of yourself. Not your face, not your physicality, but the soul within you, and the light within you that is your truest essence. It is so important.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Healing Old Battle Wounds

Today I'm reflecting on my journey, the struggles and pains, and also the effortless flow and bliss I have experienced so far in my life. Everyone goes through that ebb and flow, and it's important to be able to be okay with that, and not resist it. That is what life is in a nutshell. There will be moments that you are in the flow, soaking up the fruits of your labor, and then there will also be the moments in which you feel lost, alone, resistant, and detached from the world. Welcome to being a human being!

Today I'm reflecting on my own inner strength as a human being, which includes both the lovely moments, and the pain and suffering, all of which have be camouflaged in many different experiences. All of these experiences are for your overall growth as a spiritual being living a human experience. I've had the great pleasure to experience both polarities *big sarcastic yay* But honestly, in the end I am very grateful for them because it is made me so strong, and I have a whole new outlook on what the true meaning of life is. You don't truly understand it until you experience all of it, including those human emotions...and they are a bugger! But you can also learn how to use them to your benefit, and channel that energy in ways that are positive and beautiful. Energy is energy...there is no positive and negative, there is just energy in different forms.

I've done a lot of spiritual work in the past three years, and I mean was WORK. Going inward and listening and feeling without blinding yourself from seeing the Truth is difficult. And I'm sure I still blind myself from seeing too much out of fear of disappointing myself or having to deal with even more pain, but when I do realize that I'm holding myself back I always go inward and try to work through the issue so that I don't hurt myself anymore, or the people I care about around me. As human beings we have a strong tendency to blame each other for all of our problems, when in fact it's always our own "stuff" that is being triggered so it can be released. The difficult part is having the strength and courage to look at it, call it out, and release it. It's much easier to blame others, but it never fixes the problem, and it will keep showing up in other areas of your life in new experiences and you'll never understand why you have such bad "luck". Honor yourself and go through it so you can release it. You'll come out a warrior!

I've been going through my stuff lately, and I've had a lot of revelations about myself that I simply allowed myself to label as "the way it is" previously. I am a free spirit who is honestly a rebel of pretty much every system I've been, religion, politics, etc. I've even caught myself multiple times getting into spiritual groups that I know I will feel at home with, and they turn out to be just as good at re-enacting separation as the religions I rebel against around me.

It's human instinct; we know that we get things done better when we form together. It's a memory held within our DNA, and I have no judgment with that. But I do think that it's time to re-evaluate that system and see if we can't look at this a different way. It can be really easy to fall into a system that promotes self-transformation, enlightenment, love, peace, and compassion, but if it EVER contradicts the Truth within you, get the heck out of there. 

It's not that I disagree with all of it, or that I disrespect the purpose of it or the people in it, it's simply that I am so frustrated that it's a system driven around fear. There are so many fears instilled that all have the same foundational basis, which is to keep you in their tight manipulative grip.  Let me ask you a question, one that I have no charge with while I type this, and that is, "does that sound like God, or does that sound like man?" You are your own guidance system, and that's the Truth. Sometimes it takes an experience like that to truly understand what I'm saying. That's been my experience. I found that my own connection to the higher part of me that is Divine is the best way to find my soul purpose and the meaning of my life. It's empowering!!

These are my thoughts, and I have no judgment on your belief system, because I fully respect and love you no matter what your Truth is. I don't believe you should be punished for speaking your own Truth and guiding your own life, spiritual or not. That's an old energy; an old paradigm. Let's get beyond that, shall we? A lot of the spiritual work I spoke of had to do with that old energy I was holding on to from many lifetimes ago that had to do with being prosecuted for speaking my Truth and having a innate connection with God that no one else understood, because it wasn't their way.

I'm past that now, and I have very little fear associated with speaking my Truth, in fact I have even been able to talk openly about my journey with channeling and the grace it has brought into my life with people that I never thought I would get the chance to share it with.

I had so much fear of being rejected. I was comfortably isolated in my own bubble for a good two years before I really started practicing what I preached and found a place within me that really didn't care what others thought. It was more important to me to speak it than be understood. I think it is silly that this was a legitimate anxiety I had for so long, and around the people I should be the most comfortable around. Can we be so blinded by our need for control over the rest of the world's belief systems that we completely overlook the fact that you can love one another even when you are not clones? As my Grandma would say, "well for Pete's sake!" (anyone actually know what that means?)

This is my frustration and resistance that keeps showing up in many areas of my life, which right now is the anxiety and fears I have about going to college and feeling safe and secure. I have so many aspirations and big goals for myself, and I have a fear that I will limit myself and "waste time" on my journey, when in fact, I know it will be good for my overall wellbeing and to expand and grow and move past my own limitations. Yes, I said's my own limitations. Nothing I will do will be a waste of time, because there is no such thing. If you have to control your future to be able to feel safe and secure, you'll never go anywhere, and you'll also probably feel stir crazy. Alas, another lesson I just taught myself! For now, I'm relaxing in the Now and not worrying about what is ahead.

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Tuesday, February 24, 2015

New Gaiam TV article!

I have a new article to share with ya'll, hope you enjoy it and it helps you to gain clarity, peace, and perspective.

Coming out of Hibernation!!

It's been a chaotic, emotional, and draining couple of months since my Grandma was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer. I have learned so much about myself, summoned inner strength that I didn't know I possessed, and started to truly put the teachings I have taught others in to practice for myself. It can be really easy to say something profound and mystical to another person in response to what feels like an insignificant problem from your point of view, but when you get to a place in your life where your world seems to be shattering, you gotta put those teachings into practice for yourself, sucks!

I have learned that it's never good to get too comfortable in your cozy cocoon, because nothing is ever stagnant. Just when I thought I was getting comfortable enough to hibernate and hopefully figure my life out, this giant unexpected event shows up like, "yeah, I don't think so!" At that moment I took out the big guns and started to take my own healing abilities and put them to the test. I've studied and practiced Qigong since I was about twelve years old, but never had an experience where I had to put all of my power to use until now.

It's been humbling to You think you know what's going on, but you don't. You don't know how long you'll be here, and you spend way too much time worrying about things that don't matter, and getting angry at people for things that don't matter. Take it all in, listen with an open heart, be gentle and compassionate to all those that you meet, whether you agree with them or not, and never take this life for granted. You've been gifted with this beautiful opportunity to express all that you are, to choose your expression, and to have fun with it!

That's the purpose of life, just have fun. Stay in the moment, and don't let yourself get swept away from living in the Now. Its so important to appreciate those loved ones around you, and to always let them know how much you appreciate and love them. Don't let years go by holding on to regrets, because you're holding yourself back.

I have gained so much perspective in the process of all of this, seeing myself falling apart, and also seeing myself becoming stronger. They are both beautiful experiences, and should both be seen as equally important. Emotions are great tools for showing you where you're at so you can grow and transform in the direction that you choose. It's a tool for course correcting, and it's marvelous!

So now we're looking at Grandma's last days here on Earth, but I know we're not going to be separated, because I will with her always. I will tune into the subtleties of her energy when I still myself and listen. I am so thankful for her presence in my life, and her continuous teaching to me to love unconditionally. She was always one to be there for people no matter what, and that often meant she came second. We've taught each other in many ways. I taught her to take back her power and to live for herself in her authenticity, and to always speak her Truth.

It was her courageous decision to not do chemotherapy for quality of life, even if it was the end. But nonetheless, we pressed on with a daily qigong practice, eating high vibrational food from the Earth, and forming strong bonds within the family. We're all closer than we have ever been because of her, and because of the imprint she has left on all of us.

I've chosen something for myself...I'm goin' back to school! I was resistant for a while, but now its something that I'm really looking forward to, because it means I get to grow and expand even more, and see what I can really do! I've got a lot to share, and a lot I want to be a voice for, and the way to do that is to get out there and DO IT! It's all down stream from here on least for now ;-)

So here's to coming out of hibernation!