Monday, October 27, 2014

Thoughts on EXERCISE!

Sooo, looks like I have not been very good about keeping my blog up. Similar to my ignorance of writing in my journal. Guess I'm the kind of person that leans towards experiencing in the moment, and finds it difficult to document every moment. Life continues to amuse me, nonetheless! ;-) I find that I have to be in a very specific mood to sit down and write my thoughts...so in this moment I'm getting there. I don't edit or re-read what I write, because I want what comes out to be pure and untouched. Cause then I'm not documenting what I REALLY think. So, here we go.

Starting day 1 of the Ultrametabolism detox today, which I'm SO excited about. Not only because I will feel so much better, but also because I also have more of a passion to exercise. Exercise for me has had a lot of negative definitions in the past. There might even still be some of those in my unconscious, but I've come a long way in the last couple of years, from exercising for one reason only, to finding a place in me that allows me to exercise only when I feel my body needs it, and to let it be in whatever form I feel is best for me in that moment. Now I spend my time doing yoga and taking walks outside, because they fill my Spirit and help me to evolve as human being.

It's not just to burn calories anymore, and I love that. Yoga has so many benefits, which I don't need to go into, because I don't feel like it! Again, I'm more of an experiential kind of person. I'd rather FEEL than understand and contemplate with my mind. There is a lightness and pure connection I feel with my Divine self when I do yoga, and I don't think it's because of the poses (but they help too)...I think it's the intention that we have when we start our practice. For me it's different every time I visit my mat, but it's always about allowing space for growth. Not pushing myself too far, and also not holding myself back. Finding that balance is a practice, and a good one at that!

Today I went to yoga at a local studio just five minutes away from my house, and I found that at the beginning of each practice, I assess myself and try to judge and compare and contrast myself. Wow, what a new concept! We all do it, but the practice is to notice it and then accept it, because it is who we are as humans. I wanted to sink into that and let it be. Then I started getting tired, and was slightly disappointed that other people were able to keep going and get into those advanced poses that I really wanted to do! But we do our best, no matter where we are, and accepting ourselves where we are, no matter where we are, is essential to growth. Not just in yoga, but in life.

Yoga for me is a spiritual practice, but I love to sweat too. The endorphins being released in a way that makes me joyful is the best exercise. I'm so happy that I can say that without lying! Like "yeah, I LOVE to run 3 miles every day." That was fake. But yoga actually brings me into balance and harmony with myself, and that has been the best reflection I've had today! Excited to see how I feel by next week with detoxing!

Wednesday, August 20, 2014


Super excited to start my sound healing training in just a short couple of weeks! Looking forward to putting my whole energy into something that I REALLY want to do in the future (building a business). Can't wait to get started and to make new connections and friends - not to mention getting out of Minnesota for a little while! I will update my blog for sure when I'm back and let ya'll know how it all went (I go six days four times a year), and the entire program is three years, so it's very in depth. This is just what I was looking for just getting out of high school; something that lets me get started NOW and not four years in the future after I take generals. I'm an activist on many dimensions, and I can't see myself going into college unless it supports exactly where I'm already going.

My goal going forward is to build a business where I can use channeling and healing together as one package - specifically sound healing, but I've practiced qigong for much of my life as well. Have to remember that to co-create your own reality, you have to understand that you are ALREADY co-creating your own reality, and trying to force things is actually resisting the natural flow. That doesn't mean that you sit around and say "it's all being done for me" - you still have to put your whole hearted energy into life, but once you do that and become clear on your intentions, it will become part of your reality!

We, as physical beings often forget how to have clear intention without resistance. As non-physical beings, that is an irrelevant topic, because there is no form of resistance or fear. It's getting in touch with that essence again that helps us to understand our part in the wholeness of creation. My dream is to a place where I can travel and channel for the public, as well as to publish more books along the way. A lot of people are looking for a printed copy, and alas, that has not been accomplished yet - but give me a break, that was one heck of a process as it was! Self publishing takes a whole lot of time and effort. More updates to come!

Friday, August 1, 2014

Personal Journey Reflections

My angels and guides have been really helping me lately to push into the unknown and to believe in myself enough to really value my gifts and talents, and beyond that, to SHARE them. I'm usually the kind of person that likes to be humble, and to not talk too much about myself. But, that doesn't mean that I don't value what I do, I've just been conditioned over time (as we all have) that it looks better to not preach to much about all the fantastic things about yourself. *LOL* So, while having that in the back of my mind, awesome stuff is happenin over here lately, and I HAVE to talk about it - it's just too cool not to share.

I've learned that it's not being "stuck up" or "advertis-y" to talk about what is actually going on, especially if it's your passion and you want to share it with the world. I've been so hesitant to share my journey of channeling because there are so many people that don't want to hear it, for whatever reason. I wasn't raised in any religion, though my parents and entire family grew up in them. I knew that it wasn't my path from the beginning, because they each told me I needed to follow their rules to know God, and I already did know God, and still do. So what you're trying to tell me then is that if I don't follow your doctrines, then I must not know God and need to be "saved". *Rant time...*

We are all pieces of God. Why can't we know God personally, without anyone telling us how to talk or connect with Him? Or should I say...HER? :) What if God didn't fit into the preconceived notions that you have been taught? And what if that holds you back from experiencing the vastness of God? I've learned that many people that hold these strong belief systems (bless them) have a hard time really hearing what I have to say, because it's so out of their comfort zone. It's too hard to grasp for so many people that God is part of each and every one of us, and we don't need to reach somewhere outside of ourselves to find it.

More later on that....but for now, here is the link to my article published on Gaiam TV - so blessed to have this opportunity! http://www.gaiamtv.com/blog/channeling-divine-new-reality-comes-focus?cid=soc:facebook:blog

Monday, July 28, 2014

This is the time of awakening Lightworkers. We all came to this Earth for the purpose of co-creating. We are learning all of the experiences that come with being human, which mostly means dealing with emotions. Emotions have a frequency which helps us to grow as spiritual beings. It pushes us in many directions to move; whether they feel positive or negative. The Earth is starting to shift based on it's inhabitants, which is predominantly us human beings. Nature and animals are also part of this category. We are all part of One Spirit. The Earth's inhabitants are shifting this energy of the planet, helping it to evolve to a place where we can feel more comfortable in it.

This shift means that there will be a great amount of contrast. Contrast means that pain and suffering will arise, not only in our personal journeys, but also as a collective. It is now much harder to get political and religious structures to conform into one idea, simply because we are more and more conscious to the fact that the old ways of dealing with conflict is not helping anything - and it's causing a great amount of discomfort globally.

The energy of the planet must reach a heightened suffering to get us to shift as a collective - why? Because the greatest change happens when we all agree it needs to happen. One of my favorite puns: shift happens! I always giggle at that one. But seriously, spirituality is not all fun and games, but it's at least getting to the root of all illusions - understanding how the illusion of self plays into the whole. Our individual suffering actually impacts the whole, just as each individuals Light impacts the whole.

We're starting to come together because we're noticing that the old ways are not getting us anywhere. War, politics and religion are all structures that we use as a means of coming together to make a bigger impact than we could alone. This is how it always has been - the bigger masses can make greater change. Same goes with the energy involved in shifting the global consciousness. We must come together as One humanity, without separation, to come to world peace. I'm not saying that's right around the corner, but Lightworkers like us keep coming back because we KNOW that it's ahead, and we're in this for the long run.

Know that you're not alone here - all of us are here for the same purpose. We all have our soul signatures, but in the end, we're here because we have signed up as spiritual beings having a human experience, to evolve this planet which we now call Home. Lightworkers can feel this, and know in the core of their beingness that this is their soul purpose. All experiences along the way may be personal, in which case you may disagree with what I said above about us all being here for one purpose. I may become a healer, and you may become an artist - those are professions...I'm not talking about that. I'm not talking about what you DO, but rather, WHO you are!

Each individual on the planet at this time is making a difference. I don't care whether you're a librarian in some small little town, or you're Barack Obama - nobody just plopped you here for no reason. Seriously, don't ever think that you were a mistake, or "aren't meant to be here". This is the time where my channel will interrupt and say "get over yourself, and get out there!" That's not said in a condescending tone...it's said with love, because you deserve to live your soul purpose to it's fullest. Imagine if you do that now. Next time you come around (and you certainly will), you will be miles ahead and have much less work to do. YOU CAN DO IT!!

Friday, July 25, 2014

Ilusions galore!


I've been struggling with the illusion of fear that I am not enough or have not done enough of a good job to promote myself and all the work I have been doing to publish my book Teachings From God. It's been a very long journey, and I am actually really proud of myself...not gonna deny that. But, it's been hard, even though it is an amazing investment, both for myself, and for the world. I have this resistance to pacing myself and my goals. I want to be the next guest on Oprah before the book is even officially published...and then give myself a hard time for not working hard enough to accomplish these goals. I value the work I've done, as well as the work my channel has done to support me on this journey of awakening myself, and the world. It's not all on me...there are SO many resources out there, and this is just one small piece of the whole puzzle.

Somehow I am letting myself believe that I need to be "the next big thing", which I know are my guides pushing me to keep my goals high. I think that is a good thing, because I know that when I have those high standards for myself, I WILL achieve them in the end. The part I struggle with is the journey to the end - the process. And, funnily enough, that's the most important. I'm not always in the Now. I teach it, I talk about it, and I still want it. You have to understand, teachers are still students. We're all students, relatively. Yes, we are master Light beings, but for this time being in the human body and physical experience, we are students.

We came here to learn and experience. So, we're all walking that journey, and no one here is above and beyond that. Any teacher who claims to know all the secrets is having a major ego attack! Seriously, any real teacher knows that we're all here as students. You cannot be ego-less as a human being...you just can't. But that's the process, and the experience we signed up for! If it wasn't meant to be that way, it wouldn't. God could do that...but that isn't the journey that we were looking for. The point is to experience, to learn contrast, emotional balance, boundaries, and connection with the Divine.

Through all these daily trials, growth happens rapidly. When we fall down and get hurt, we are more receptive to change, because we know contrast. We learn that what we don't want will cause us to find out what we do want, and then the passion to grow even more causes drastic shifts in your personal development as a human being - and therefore, as a spiritual being. We willingly and knowingly put ourselves in these positions for the overall purpose of spiritual growth! Who woulda' thunk!

I'm now starting to understand on a deeper level that my self observation and awareness is sharpening. I'm learning that I can grow and change and develop WHILE I sit back and relax. I don't have to go gung-ho on everything until I hit walls. This whole publishing process has given me a taste of that - and though it has been exciting, joyful, and seriously fun, I have resistance to patience! I am already doing so much work, and somehow I keep going back to the thoughts of "I need to do more". That's just where I am, but I am noticing it...and therefore the resistance lessens. It's all good...it's all good.

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Moving forward on your soul purpose FEARLESSLY!


Today I've been contemplating my role in this universe. What is it in me that wants to contradict my big dreams? Why is it that I have such a passion to change the world in such a big way, but there's always that small voice inside that makes you want to back down and question the validity? I'm starting to realize that the process of moving through fear of failure that brings the greatest blessings, because it teaches you to start to conquer these fears early, before they start showing up in a bigger way. To be constantly aware of how you react in every day experiences are so revealing, and it's beautiful to acknowledge these so that you can grow and experience these same situations in the future differently. Life is about growth and learning our authenticity. If that is a mystery, then our whole existence is a mystery. 

In that case, I can see why so many people live in fear and resentment of all of the choices they have made in their life - because they aren't awake to their true purpose, or of the Divine meaning of their existence. We're all born with a blueprint, which holds the energy of all of our existences, life experiences, and the totality of the universal consciousness, which is LOVE. My book, Teachings From God, is all about awakening to this true purpose...and it is not about one answer..."right" or "wrong". It is about learning to tune into yourself enough to see the Divine in yourself, for yourself. It's about finding YOU without anyone labeling or defining you for you. 
To read my article on Gaiam TV:
I've learned that life is about defining yourself...and it can't come from others. You need to value yourself enough to know that you are a projection of Source in a human body, and to also know that you are here for greatness. Don't let yourself get small, whether it's someone telling you that you're not the greatness that you truly are, or whether it's coming from yourself. These are simply illusions. When you wake up and start to experience yourself from the eyes of Source, you will see there is only infinite beauty. Your human body is only part of your greatness - and you extend SO much further. You have the power within to investigate and claim your inner Divinity! 

This is your chance to step into your power and to start living the life you came to live. Whether it is to be a teacher, to speak your Truth, to be a Lightworker, a healer, an artist, a musician, a film maker, an actor, a figure skater, or an engineer, you make the difference in the world. You don't need to be the Dalai Llama to shine Light in the world. If you can live in your heart with a passion to serve yourself indefinitely, you will always be guided. Even if you've been in the dark throughout your lifetime, and you regret the time where you were not as awake as you are now...don't even go there! The mind wants to take off and judge your every move - to be rational and to follow the conditionings that you have been taught your whole life. 

All life experiences are undeniably guided from Spirit. Whether it's losing a family member, moving to a new home, suffering from an illness, feeling alone and lost in your life, losing a pet, getting in a car accident, running into financial issues, wanting to get in better physical shape, or want to let go of past traumas...all is in the hands of Spirit. I'm not denying that life has it's hardships, because it definitely does. I also can't say I have personal experience with all of these experiences, but I CAN say, I understand the purpose of them, and have experienced my own version of hardships. It's not about defining them, it's about getting to the root issue of them, why you react the way you do, and what pain, fears, or "lack of" feelings may be causing these reactions. 

If you can successfully do that, and become invested in your own growth, you will feel so much better knowing that it is not the experiences that are causing you pain, it is YOU that causes that pain, based on your blueprint. This causes triggers often from past lives, which can be brought up in our current lifetimes if they need to be healed. To heal them consciously means you deactivate that pattern or program and can move through your life now (and in the future lifetimes) much easier. 

These are a few words I wanted to share tonight. Namaste!